The lockdown for me is really not that different to my life before, with the exception of not being able to do the things we enjoyed as our little unit (me, DH, DS(4), and 3 grown up DC who whilst have come home for the lockdown have their own lives and leave us to it.
I have no friends, there have been no zoom chats, group quizzes or anything remotely social. Nothing with family either, Ive messaged people checking how they’re doing but conversations dry up very quickly. Despite doing everything for my mum shopping, medicines, walking the dog etc) she only gets in touch when she wants something doing.
It was my birthday a few weeks ago, no one bothered, my mum said because of the lockdown she didn’t bother, my DH didn’t bother (the original plan was to use the theatre tickets he bought for Christmas and have a weekend in London but obviously that was cancelled).
I feel so down and lonely and really have no idea on how to make things different. DH isn’t that bothered about his own family and his friends seemed to have vanished.
There is one person I do consider a friend, probably a best friend but she lives 220 miles away and despite occasionally messages there’s been nothing despite my efforts.
I work in a school and whilst I will chat to my colleagues at work, there is nothing outside of the workplace, I don’t fit into a team as such so not invited out to team events.
I’m just so very sad.