Is it normal to still feel like this?

[sprite25]

I had my third baby 7 weeks ago, so I know it's not that long ago but is it normal to feel traumatised by the birth 7 weeks later? For some reason when trying to sleep at night I start thinking about the birth and get a mix of emotions ranging from traumatised/panicky to angry and have to stop myself from thinking about it all before it gets too much. I had slight post natal depression with my first baby but this doesn't feel like that, as I only feel this way when thinking about the actual birth. It's making me feel sad as well as I feel like it's going to stop me from ever having another baby for fear of going through another difficult birth. I don't really know where I'm going with this just hoping someone can tell me it's normal and will go away, such a shame as my second birth went so well (posted here for traffic)

H sprite. I had a traumatic birth with my first and had flashbacks and nightmares and all sorts for nearly 2 yrs. It was diagnosed as Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I would speak to your gp, health visitor, midwife - anyone you can get hold off. Just talking through what happened will make a huge difference.
Lockdown craziness won't be helping either. Talk to your partner/family/friends in the meantime. X

Find out if your hospital offers a Birth Afterthoughts service or a debrief. Most hospitals do. They will be able to sit down with you, go through your notes and explain to you what happened and why.

In the meantime, if you have any specific questions that arise when you're thinking about the birth, etc, write them down so that you don't forget them