I’ve been doing rather a lot of self reflection today for whatever reason. Probably to do with finding out last night an old friend died from suicide at the start of the year.
One of the things I have realised is that I don’t have any real goals in life. Maybe some sort of loose goals that I haven’t really thought about overly. Be a good mum, wife etc. I don’t actually have any goals for myself or my future though. For the past however many years, I seem to have just plodded along through life, dealing with things that cropped up along the way then plodding along some more.
I’m 35 and have 5dc. Four teens/preteens and a 10 month old DS. I’ve worked as a retail manager and been married twice, divorced once. That is the sum of me really.
I go through phases where I go all out to be motivated, organised, winning at life, then slump back after a month or two of just plodding along again. I learn new things to the point of feeling I can do them, then loose interest. At this rate I really feel that I am wasting my life.
I’d love to hear what goals other people have and how you stay motivated, or even if you are like me or were like me?