hi am new to mumsnet this is my first post..
I am 32 and pregnant with my second baby. I am 17+1 weeks.
I was working full time for the NHS. Since Covid19 started and the government advised for pregnant women to self isolate I have been so have not been in work and been in my house for...….I don't even know anymore 7/8 weeks?
I am waiting for work to be sent to me for me to do at home from my work, having to keep a 4 year old entertained, worrying about anything and everything has all taken its toll on me. Past few weeks I have felt myself becoming more and more unhappy and really struggling with my moods. I have no patient for anything, I feel like I am constantly telling my little boy off arguing with my bf and the other night I just lost it, as soon as I put the little one to bed I just left the house and went on a drive to be on my own. I am just feeling like a complete failure, to my little boy, my unborn baby, to my work colleagues and at life.
I took myself off all social media as that wasn't making my situation any better.
so yesterday I decided enough was enough I cant sort my head out myself so I phoned my doctor to talk to him and see what he suggested.
I had to do an online test which would score me on how I as feeling and I scored 21/27 server depression. he prescribed me sertraline I didn't want tablets but im willing to try it if it give my head a rest and I become a little less stressed and able to deal with day to day life a bit better. all this worry an distress cant be any good for my unborn baby :(
I had a call off my sister this morning to have a chat and she informed me that I wouldn't just be able to stop these once I felt better and that I would have to wean myself off them and so would my unborn baby...so I asked how the baby would be weaned off them and she explained baby wont be baby will just have withdrawals.....so after being worried about taking these tablets and what harm it would have on my baby I had googled and also phoned my local hospital where i will be having my baby, to ask extra advice on whether or not im ok to take these tablets during my pregnancy? A midwife and doctor both said yes. so I was relived and looking forward to this extra support to help me cope....then obviously the call from my sister put more doubt and worry on my mind so again I have googled it and I feel now am just back at square one. my baby could suffer all kinds of different things if baby is born while I am still taking these tablets so now I wont be taking them at all. I am not risking it.
Am so annoyed no one has mentioned this to me only telling me im ok to take during pregnancy and nothing about after I give birth.
has anyone been on thee tablets during pregnancy and if so did your baby suffer complications?
just feel like am back at square one and feeling even more down and like a failure that I cant even cope with the situation like everyone else is doing. anyone got a new head please because mine is ready to explode :(