@Ninkanink thank you. I know whatever I'm anxious about is never as bad as I think it will be but unfortunately my daft brain refuses to "get" that. There are certain tasks I have to do daily/weekly that every time I procrastinate and delay until they absolutely have to be done because I hate doing them but then that can result in causing difficulties that wouldn't have been caused if I'd just bloody well got on with it!
In terms of accessing resources to get support to get well I am determined to do so once things are "back to normal" and I won't be taking no for an answer or even "in a month" or "first you have to do x y z" I've been begging for help for 3 years (this time around) and the mh people have been shite. Well I've been hesitant about taking it to a higher level complaint wise but no more. It's not good enough and I am sick of having no life.
Anyway...don't wanna be a Debbie downer and actually I'm not down I'm frustrated and ready to fix things - but I need help to do so.
I am unbelievably GRATEFUL to all who've posted on these threads, it's really weird how something can help in an indirect way without us expecting it to.
Everyone's plans are so amazing such talented and confident cooks!
Making my mouth water.
Today I am tackling a mountain of dishes using a washing up bowl that looks like Del Boys car!
did I mention I procrastinate?
Will be freezing last nights "curries" but think I'm going to add some more spice first.
Plans for the week:
Start using some of the leftovers by remembering to defrost them 
Get some baking done now I finally have the tools. I may even finally be able to make some scones that actually rise following gleaning a few tips on mn.
Try and find some new recipes to try to keep my interest going
You're all very into the spicy stuff - which is great I get it, but as it's not what I can eat I need some new savoury inspiration.
I'm currently on the hunt for a good veggie ghoulash recipe and I may even attempt to make some puff pastry and do wee tartlets? Of the kind you put the topping on and the pastry rises around it? If anyone has tried and trusted recipes for either pastry or tarts I'd be very interested.
I find the bbc good food site pretty good for basic recipes that don't call for crazy ingredients that are hard to get normally.