I have been starting to look into the entry requirements for a PhD in history and am feeling a bit inadequate; I'm not sure whether I might make a fool of myself if I apply/if I get in.
I have a 2:1 from Oxford in history but it wasn't a great 2:1 (63). I'm ashamed to say that I didn't do a huge amount of work at law school because I was so incredibly bored, so didn't get amazing results (69), but could probably have done better if I had pulled my finger out. I don't yet have a master's, although I appreciate that I am likely to need one. I love spending my days researching; I've spent the last 15 years as a lawyer, but want to direct it into something I love, rather than the GDPR, etc. I'd be the first to confess that at 20, I probably wasn't a very original thinker. I wasn't ever going to get thrown out of college, but I was so anxious to get it "right" that my essays were probably regurgitated facts rather than ground breaking arguments. I'm not completely stupid, but I am very far from being a genius.
I don't need to worry about funding; I am lucky enough to be able to pay for this myself. I'm just worried that I'm not bright enough for this, or that even if I get accepted, it'll be miserable because I'll always feel like the most stupid person in the room. For context, I have recently been made redundant because the company is collapsing, so my confidence is pretty low right now.
Might anyone know whether it sounds as though I'd be hopelessly out of my depth? And is it the case that some universities would in practice accept less stellar candidates? Is it easier for example to get into the Open University than it is to get into Oxford?
Thank you.