Advice for depressed 4 month pregnant woman?

[SpotlessMind88]

It's my first pregnancy and I've always suffered from depression (since I was 14, I'm 31 now). I'm not taking my meds while I'm pregnant because I didn't want to risk anything. I'm 4 months pregnant with major anxiety due to Covid-19. Today is probably one of the worst days I've had. I'm crying watching a reality show. I'm worried about money (I'm being made redundant at the end of the month). and sick with jealously watching Fern McCann lol. I guess the show has made me think more about the fact that I'm privately renting a 1 bed flat and I'm worried we won't ever be able to afford anything bigger when the baby comes. I can't stop crying or worrying. Any advice would be greatly appreciated xxx

No advice I'm afraid but just wanted to let you know that you're not alone. I'm 25 weeks, had mild MH issues in the past but pregnancy + coronavirus + not being able to use any of my usual coping mechanisms is really starting to get to me and have spent most of yesterday and today crying.

I'm not saying this to try to minimise your distress (and hopefully someone here will have some actual advice for you) but please don't have the added burden of feeling like you "should" be coping better. Pregnancy plus corona is a bloody hard combination and just getting through each day is a minor triumph x

My advice is to tell your midwife or GP. There are antidepressants that are ok to be on while pregnant (were you advised to stop yours while pregnant?)
I know, as I was about the same gestation when I told my midwife I was crying everyday. I also wanted to breastfeed so took advice on which antidepressant was safest to bf on, which meant changing over after baby was born. That baby is now 7 and my journey with depression and motherhood had been made 100% more bearable by the fact that I sought help.
Also look at the Two in Mind resources from Mind, and PANDAS (post and antinatal depression association )
The situation today with covid is HARD, but be kind to yourself, seek the treatment and support you need, which will be kindest to your baby x

@KnobwithaK thank you for your kind words. I really appreciate your reply and it has made me feel a bit better so thank you again! Xx

@tatyr I didn't actually know there were safer antidepressants to take. To be honest I haven't had much contact with my GP since the corona madness started and I haven't even met or spoken to my midwife yet :( I am due to have a phone call with her on the 22nd though. I will definetly ask if she can prescribe something that I can take. I definetly feel like I need something to help get me through this. I will now check out Mind and PANDAS. Thank you so much for your advice and your kind words. I really appreciate it Xxx

You're not alone, I'm also pregnant (20 weeks) and struggling with my mental health. I advise you to ask your midwife to refer you to the perinatal mental health team. I don't know what exactly they can offer but I think you should hopefully be put in touch with a specialist mental health midwife who can support you. Your midwife won't be able to prescribe anti depressants, your GP might be able to, but they might possibly want to refer to a specialist who can advise on antidepressants in pregnancy. As PPs said there are some that are ok to take, it's a balancing act because your mental health is important too.

@NameChange30 thank you! I will ask my midwife if I can be referred to the perinatal mental health team. This is my first pregnancy so it's all new and I don't even know certain teams / things exist. Thank you again for your great suggestions :)