Really struggling tonight

[RoryGillmoresEvilTwin]

I know that we're all in the same position, give or take, but I feel so unbelievably lonely tonight. I'm so sad for my ds who is also so lonely and his mental health is taking a battering.Video calls just aren't cutting it really.
It doesn't help that we're in a small flat with no outside space and seemingly all my neighbours are living their best lives. The upstairs couple are seeing friends and going for nice long days out in their car and the neighbours both sides of me are having parties and friends round non stop.
It makes me wonder why ds and I are living such a miserable existence to be honest.

Wow those neighbours are all breaking the law! No wonder you feel miserable if you're comparing yourselves to people leading a normal life right now, when nothing about life is normal.

You are keeping yourself safe and keeping others safe too. You are strong enough to do what's right.

Thank you

Yes we are doing everything we're supposed to be doing, and mostly plodding through the days relatively ok but being surrounded by these people is getting me down.
Being a lp is difficult at times normally but it's feeling unbearable right now. I know I'm not the only one feeling this way and we will continue to do the right thing but my god, I miss our normally busy, frantic lives a lot today!

Well that's understandable! Feels like wading through treacle just getting through days, and then I feel guilty about wishing days away myself

Just remind him it won’t be long - a few weeks at most.
We have the protections in place for the nhs and if and when people get ill they’ll be able to cope.

Yes! I find myself wishing away the day when I've only been awake for a short while. I then feel guilty and sad that ds only has me for company.

I keep trying to be ultra positive in the day. Its exhausting!
We'll be ok and I keep telling ds that we'll be ok. Today has been a hard one but tomorrow will be better I hope.

So sorry you're having a rubbish day op 💐

It goes in waves with me, op (I live alone). I've been having a chronically lonely day today as it happens! So you're not alone in that. Us and LOADS of others.

At least I have sensible neighbours - your neighbours are taking the absolute piss! It's a bit miserable but id report them. Wtf??

Try to live in the day. I think a lot of the stress is looking ahead - which is a crushing thought tbf. I've also been looking back lately - as you do with acres of time alone - which is also disastrous and of no use whatsoever. We can't change the past, we don't know what's going to happen in the future so it's best not to go there!

I do find a list of gratitudes helps - I exchange a list every day with someone by text. Only about 5 or 6 but it sets me up in the right direction iyswim, otherwise it's easy to get swamped in the negatives.

It's like I'm pacing myself for a marathon, head down, not looking ahead.

Take care sweetie 🌹

It will get better I promise. I will pray for you!

Thank you everyone.
I'm going to sleep and wake up more positive tomorrow!

It's important to let yourself be down though - you'll come through it. You don't have to be cheery all the time - exhausting! Xx

Sorry you’re feeling crap, I had a bad day yesterday but ok today. It comes and goes and yes sleep helps. This will end at some point, just take each day at a time.

You do need to report your neighbours, especially the ones having friends round as those friends will be using communal areas so putting the whole building at risk.

As for the ones going out on day trips, I didn’t think we were allowed to drive elsewhere to exercise, aren’t we supposed to be staying close to home?!

Report those neighbours immediately please op.
People like that are part of the reason that over 12 THOUSAND people have died, and the number is rising each day.
NHS frontline staff are putting themselves at risk to save lives and you get twats like that who think they are exempt from the rules.
Seriously, please report them.