Do other people find it hard "being" in the house with their kids?

[Duvetstay]

I have 2 DC aged 6 and 8 finding lockdown is magnifying something that I always feel in that I can't relax when we're all in the house together (there is 4 of us with DH but he's not the problem!)

Do other people find this or is it just me? I feel constantly guilty, like life is a party that I've invited them to and I have to make everything fun. I usually hate weekends as I feel like this but then they see friends or go for a day out so it's not too bad. I feel bad if I do anything for myself, read a book /have a bath etc because I'm not interacting with them.

They're great kids and we're really close so not like it's a problem with our relationship. I just don't know how to "be" when they're there. We don't have a huge house which doesn't help, we're on the verge of extending but the current situation means that this is on hold for now. However we have 3 beds and a garden which is loads more than others have.

I'm dying to relax, have a potter and do some house jobs or just a sit down but I feel edgy to be doing this when they're in the house.

Is it just me?

I find it hard to just immerse myself into something incase I'm interrupted which generally results in wasting my life on MN.

My DCs (7&9) are actually quite undemanding of me and love to be left to their own devices, but you can guarentee that if I do begin to relax into a good book or yoga video, that something will occur requiring my attention. Earlier it was DH sliding the wardrobe doors around putting his washing away while I was using them for yoga.

My attention span is still shot from the baby/ toddler years!

Thanks for all your thoughts, really helpful to know others feel the same and people have put into words feelings that I didn't notice, such as wasting time on MN and "enjoying" putting washing away as it gives me some alone time.

My dc can, especially in the mornings for some reason, be pretty good at entertaining themselves or at least watching TV quietly. It's just that I can't relax and have a feeling of guilt if I'm not busy... I think I need an interest or hobby I can do round the house so I can focus on something else other than the kids. Will have a think, my usual ones are online shopping and heavy drinking which aren't that productive!!

@dyscalculicgal96 please tell me you didn't actually mean any free time?