In February I had a mental health crisis and I was advised to go to the A&E at my local hospital (nearest mental health out of hours). A member of my family who I try to restrict contact with, found out and decided that there was no way I would go on my own and that they would take me. They changed my next of kin to themselves. I was assessed and allowed to go home to make an appointment with my GP the following day. This family member decided that they would go to the appointment with me.
It was following this appointment that I realised that they have been abusive for a number of years (physically and mentally/emotionally). I made a further appointment without telling anyone but my close friends and discussed my worries with a different doctor who agreed and referred me to a help group. Unfortunately, due to it not being a close family member (parents or siblings), there was little the help group could do other than advise me to call the police every time this family member abused me.
The issue is, I can't contact the police as, this family member has everyone believing that they can do no wrong and it would end with other family members coming round hammering on my door and accusing me of lying.
When the lockdown was announced, I thought that for at least a few weeks I wouldn't need to worry as they wouldn't be able to visit their parents who live on the same street. That's turned out not to be the case as they still visit and I can hear them talking on the street with their parents. It has made my anxiety so bad that, when someone rang my doorbell earlier, I honestly thought it was my abusive family member and panicked, setting off palpitations (it wasn't just someone with a wrong address). 5 hours later the palpitations are continuing.
I honestly don't know how much longer I can cope. All I want is to be able to sell my house so I can move away with only my friends knowing my new address.
I know that there are people who have it worse. I just needed to get how I'm feeling off my chest.