A strange friendship

[piesky]

I've name changed for this because I sound very weird and I'm embarrassed, but I could do with some perspective, please. I can't imagine ever saying this to anyone in real life!

I have a really good friend that I've met since having kids, but only really close for maybe the last three years. We see each other most days on the school run and we do a lot of social things together.

However, I've realised that I'm always a bit worried about being 'dropped' by her, and this has amplified since we've been in lockdown and we're not seeing each other for all the usual things. I notice that I always text her first or call, and then decide not to until she gets in touch, then give in and text. In short, I feel like fifteen year old me worrying about texting a boy, and this is not where I want to be at my age.

I am married, three kids, mid thirties and actually have a lot of other friends, so I've no idea why I'm acting so strangely. I'm not liking this insecure side of myself at all, and it all feels so misplaced. But I still feel it! Any thoughts, please?

Maybe you have got different ways of maintaining a friendship? Maybe you are the sort of person who is good at keeping in touch via texts, etc, and she is the sort of person who is good at actually meeting up in real life, but she's not so good at keeping in touch in other ways, and this is making you feel insecure?

Does she respond promptly when you text her?

@TheReluctantCountess She does always reply promptly whenever I message her.

@Time40 I think that's definitely true. Everything is just so strange at the moment, when everything has to be done remotely. It's just hard to get used to.

Thank you both for reading - I've put things in perspective a bit more now 😊