Woe is me

[2020canfuckrightoff]

Having a little bit of a wobble today, and just posting I guess for a bit of release. It’s all very “first world problems” in light of what’s going on but still...

In January I made some big lifestyle changes. I stopped smoking (having been on 40 a day and never having given up ever), stopped drinking, and started going to the gym having lots stepped foot in one for about ten years.

Fast forward two weeks into isolation - back to smoking as much as before, drinking at least three times a week, and can’t motivate myself to do any exercise beyond walking the dog.

The smoking is the bit I’m most disappointed in - I really was doing well, with no real thoughts about it and now I feel I’m back to square one.

I just feel like it really was a turning point, and it’s just all gone to shit overnight.

I know three months in is always a danger point when making lifestyle changes, but 100% would not be smoking or have stopped the gym if it wasn’t for the situation. Not complaining about it, just feel a bit crap.

Anyone else?

Understandable to be having a wobble in these times!
Just make sure it's only a wobble - get yourself into a new routine. You got this!

I want to stop smoking so why don’t you tell me how you stopped and it might make you stop again. (I’ve tried a few times but have no willpower - weak old woman)

Dont upset urself, everyone handles stress and downtime differently. feeling down right now might be ur way forward to make better decisions.
what made u go back to buying them? Is it because it is on ur way when u walk the dog? Can u change directions? Or do u go shopping hungry and end up buying what u may not have purchased otherwise? just thinking out loud

Eh, you fell off the wagon, you can get back on.

When I don’t feel like doing anything, I try to do a Jessica Smith “walk and talk”. She’s sweet and not annoying and perks me up in these odd times. Very gentle, just gets a little juice in the joints. (I know there’s a proper word for that but I’ve forgotten it).

www.youtube.com/results?search_query=jessica+smith+walk+and+talk

At least your dog is getting walks. (some days our's doesn't) :-( because nobody gets out of bed. sigh. It is not easy is it.

I'm having a wobble as well OP. And stupidly staying up instead of going to sleep which means I'll be tired tomorrow and therefore do less then as well.

I just feel like there is nothing to look forward to. And that's because there isn't anything. Apart from the risk of a deadly illness (!), everything that makes up my life is gone. All the theatres, the bars, the activities I do. I just work, cook, clean fucking endlessly in the same tiny flat every day. My day starts when I take ten steps into the shower and another ten steps to the dining table to do my job. It ends with the final ten steps to bed. I miss my friends, the kids miss their friends, the economy is fucked, everyone is dying, shopping for food is a stressful military exercise and it isn't going to change for ages. None of this is good and there are no positives.

@Mollypolly2610 so the actual “method of stopping” was that I went to the Allen Carr clinic.
What I’d say to someone else is - be prepared for it to be really hard - know that for about a week you won’t be able to focus, be grumpy etc but know that it will pass and you will feel great.

The gym started on week two as a way to distract myself from thinking about smoking. The not drinking was to keep my willpower.

I also (sob) used the money I was saving to get a few things done to my teeth (though now am half way through with no idea when we will finish).

OP you can do this come on. Why don’t you put together a daily routine to help you stick to it

It's really really shit!
I had lost a lot of weight (over 4stone)
I was in a great place routine wise now it's just all gone to pot and I've gained a stone .
So stay strong and try to make this your last pack of cigarettes.
I wish you strength and luck.

Thanks for such nice support guys, but better today though still on the cigarettes. Did a small workout this morning but it’s shocking how much fitness I’ve lost.

@Maverick66 sounds like you’re really in the same boat - It’s the routine being disrupted that throws you so far off kilter. And not being able to access shopping easily makes it harder to make the best food choices as well.