I feel so lonely

[ohgollymissmolly]

I recently broke up with my partner. I have no friends anymore and no family locally. My job has told me I must go in to the office still so I cannot get down to my family, if I do I will have to quit my job but who knows how long it would be before I find another? I spent all day yesterday just staring up at the ceiling, occasionally weeping. I honestly feel like a ghost and don't want to be conscious anymore. Please someone talk to me

Sorry to hear that OP, there are always people here on MN to chat to, any time of the day or night.
Do you have anything you can do at home to keep your mind off things? Any crafts etc?

Hi OP

You know that this will end, right? We won't be social distancing forever (I am self isolating as I think I have it).

I'm sorry to hear about you breaking up with your partner. Were you together a long time?

Yes together for 6 years. We are still in the same house but not on speaking terms. We own our house together, I'm going to have to leave it. Am worried about having no partner, no house and leaving my pets behind. Possibly my job too if I move closer to my family. I am trying to change my mindset to think of it as a new fresh start but everything feels so bleak. I just wish I had real life people to talk to even on the phone, I feel so desperately alone and don't know why no one at all has text me to ask if I'm alright, it's like I am a nasty person but not sure why or what I've ever done wrong

Hi @ohgollymissmolly I'm so sorry you're struggling. It's such a weird time, it's understandable to be feeling a bit overwhelmed.

MN is a good place to chat (and there are always folk about). Is there stuff you can do at home that might break up the day and make life feel a bit easier?

I spent a long time in my thirties without a partner / friends and used to find weekends overwhelming and upsetting. I coped by dividing the day into little chunks because it felt more manageable and suddenly an hour out for a walk, or reading the paper, or painting toenails, doing some craft or whatever passed the time without it feeling like a massive amount of time to pass.

What do you enjoy doing? Gaming? Reading? Exercise? Cooking? Craft?