I've posted quite a lot recently...
Ex DP is a nasty manipulative bully, and also a coward who wants someone else to do all of his dirty work.
We have an upcoming court date to discuss child arrangements, as since meeting a new partner and moving her in he backtracked on our verbal agreement and now wants to isolate me from DC (his proposal is I have DC weekends and bank holidays only)
Exs new partner is also a bully, and seems to be quite clever, sends long wordy emails that are designed to bully and intimidate, without that being clear to anyone but me. they have accused me of all sorts of unfounded but very serious things (drug use, child abuse) while themselves being guilty of neglect (benign neglect at the most generous)
I am vacillating between relatively confident in the outcome of court case- I have a good job, excellent support network, great relationship with DC and have always managed all school/doctors/finance for DC, and real fear that somehow Exs lies will be believed and I will have to stand back and allow our precious DC to be poisoned and damaged by living with there toxic people.
DC alleged that new partner was smacking them, i raised this with Ex, and it was dismissed, but the behaviour towards DC seems to have improved, to the other extreme. Now DC are coming home talking about how wonderful Exs new partner is, how they have 'snuggle cuddles' and how she makes the best 'hot choccy'. and now I'm struggling with irrational jealousy, and doubting my own abilities.
I feel that my constant second guessing of myself and their actions is impacting my mental health- for example, I have not yet heard from CAFCASS for the preliminary telephone conversation, as the court date gets closer I worry that somehow ex has given them a different phone number for me, making me un-contactable...paranoia. And due to my stress and distraction I am not being the best parent i can be at present.
Im not sure what I hope to achieve by posting, so please forgive this vent!