after the school run this morning I got home and cried my eyes out. I rang my partner and told him I didn't know what to do. I've been suffering with my iron levels for a long time now. I was put on ferrous sulfate for a couple of months last year and my levels return to normal. Originally I had no reserves left.
I would say my periods are definitely to blame for the anaemia. They are really heavy and they are lasting 3 days longer than they did before I had kids. I've had scans done and they can't see any reason in my womb or ovaries for the bad bleeding. after my scan I had the worst period and all my symptoms came back. I had such a weak chest and I physically just couldn't push through the day to do the things I normally do. I had to rely on my partner to do the school runs which is not ideal as a stay-at-home mum, that's my job really. He's been great helping me out but he has to work and it's obviously affecting our family set up. He is driving 90 miles this afternoon to collect our child from school. I'm so frustrated as before half term he did the whole week of school runs for me. I managed to do 3 out of 5 days last week myself. this morning I fully thought I would be absolutely fine and got half a mile to the school and my chest started to feel tired. on the way back I just felt really sick and drained and struggled to walk up the hill to get home. I'm currently laid on the sofa feeling really weak and struggling to function. I am going to the doctors on Friday to finally discuss my blood test results from 4 weeks ago. the surgery is really struggling with a shortage of doctors at the moment and appointments are just impossible to get easily.
I've been taking iron again now for 3 weeks and today has just been horrible. I've just finished my period yesterday and it lasted 8 days so perhaps that's why I feel as I do today. I know it sounds silly because it's not a life and death situation but I am actually scared. My daughters at a lovely little school we picked out and I've made friends there too. there is one closer to home but we didn't get a good feel for it. She's made friends now and she's happy and I hate the thought of moving her. My partner said not to think about these things at the moment and we'll sort it out. he says that I'll get better. But after a month of my body failing me every time I try and be a normal 30 year old, I'm starting to think is this how my life is going to be now. I know other people have much worse things going on but this really is leaving me with nothing going on in my life. all I do is sit in the house trying to get some energy together. not being able to take care of the kids properly and not being able to enjoy my kids is really getting me down. I like doing the school runs, it gives me a chance to mingle and it also gets us out in the fresh air. Now I'm not even able to do that very often, I'm starting to feel more and more cut off from life and more and more frustrated with my body.
Has anybody ever been in this situation and how do you get better?
Please be nice to me. I don't think I can take a mumsnet bashing today.