*possible trigger* my daughter would have been 22 this week

[HonestlyWillTheRsinEverStop]

She died when she was 9 days old.
I have 2 of the most wonderful children in the world but I’m so angry. Not for me. But how anyone can put a baby through so much pain.
Yes for me -
I hurt every single day
It’s a bad week I’m sorry
362 days of the year I’m fine but everyone forgets
I’ve tried to let it define me & I think I’ve done a good job but sometimes it’s so hard

To not let

So sorry Honestly x I lost my little boy at 20 weeks gestation. I ask myself the same question often and yes, I understand the anger. Baby A would be approaching 5 now. My shadow child. I mention him often. He is always there, I think about him most days. We will never forget. Thinking of you x

I am sorry for your loss, you will never forget your little girl and you have your children to cherish. My first dd died 43 years ago age 7 months and it still hurts but in different ways. I have found that doing something in her memory helps enormously. I volunteer as a community first responder to help in times of crisis/illness for people. We own a piece of land in rural area which is planted with thousands of snowdrops for her. Perhaps you could do some fund-raising for a charity?

I'm so sorry. Would you like to tell us her name x

I'm so sorry. Would it help to tell us more about your daughter and the time you had together?

Her name is Poppy.
I’m usually so strong but one of my clients had a baby this week.
Oh my gosh he’s so gorgeous.
My story is no different to all those grieving parents.
Tonight I just feel so angry .
I’ve just questioned myself so much over the years.

Sending you a hug OP and saying a prayer for you and your darling Poppy.

I always think it is weird the way people think grief only lasts a short time and we should just get over it - I think it stays with us and comes in waves.

Do you have a place or a tree or something that you remember her at? Could you celebrate her birthday with some family?

Sorry for your heartbreaking loss.

Losing a child is the worse pain ever.

I have a Polaroid of her.
I panic because it’s the only photo I have of her. I keep it in an envelope because I worry about it fading.
Im sorry - it’s just one of those days.
I hate feeling sorry for myself when there are many in much worse situations

So sorry @honestly

This is how I think of her - a poppy in beautiful wild meadow of flowers. Strong & so very wild

So sorry to hear this, to keep.our photo safe could you have professional copies done? I'm.sure you have thought of this but photography companies can do amazing work.

So sorry you only had such a short time with your beautiful daughter.

Can you take a photo of the Polaroid on your phone, the quality won't be as good but better than nothing shoukd anything ever happen to the original.

That's a beautiful image for Poppy

Have you scanned your photo of her? It's a good way to keep a back up.

Poppy is a lovely name.

Oh bless you . Definitely take the photo to someone who can scan and copy the picture..sending you so much love 💐💕💐

I am so sorry to hear about your darling Poppy - it hurts so much because you love her as much today as the first moment you met her.

Take a photo of your photo on your phone and email it to yourself in various accounts as backups.

Then , perhaps, get a professional print of it and frame it in a lovely Poppy decorated frame.

Have her out on display, not only in the envelope, scared in case you lose the only photo.

And Poppy is an absolutely beautiful name x

Thinking of you.

So sorry but definitely get a copy or two of the photo.

I'm so sorry OP.

If you could do something, an act might help lessen the anger? Maybe scatter poppy seeds anywhere you can - grass verges etc - many of them spread beautifully & it might gladden your heart when you see them in bloom.