I've decided that today is the day, it's the day, I get my ass into gear re self care, exercising & eating properly and generally being grateful for what I have in life.
I'm really in a rut, it's been coming for a while but needs to stop now, there's been various things happening, mental health & family bereavements but you know what, I've had some really good therapy and I should be feeling better, not eating like a pig, not exercising, being moody, drinking too much, feeling shit and on and on the cycle goes.
I'm always worse the week before my period and I'm due on any day now, so am going to look into supplements to help with that and after pancakes tonight, I'm going to start eating properly and calorie counting.
But first I'm off to a cross fit class. It's the first time I've exercised in ages but I'm doing it. I've not talked myself out of it & really hope I enjoy it.
I'm sick of being a self saboteur.
Wish me luck......