Feel like I’m sinking

[Worried25]

This is just a ramble really as I can’t talk to anyone in real life. Also first world problems.
A few weeks ago one of my kids suddenly got really sick, brought him to dr and turns out it’s glandular fever, he’s been very unwell and just wasn’t able to go to school so it’s been two weeks and he’s been at home, he simply didn’t have the energy. He’s only 8 so took a while to figure out what it was, then I came down with an awful dose of bacterial tonsillitis, it’s taken two doses of antibiotics and I feel totally wiped. On top of this my two year old came down with viral tonsillitis so he was also at home. My 5 year old is acting up a lot and his breath really smells so I’m scared it’s tonsillitis again , I can’t see any pus (sorry) on his throat but the way he’s acting and the smell makes me think it might come. Cue more time off after already being off for midterm, my 5 year old also has some behavioral issues and so has been having lots of meltdowns (he needs lots of exercise and fresh air) .
My dr also today told me my white blood count was high but seemed unworried as I had Bacterial tonsillitis at the time but I’m anxious as I am v tired and worried re lymphomas etc. I also found out I have extremely low ferritin a few months back as I have very heavy periods. This did improve with iron supplements and I found my periods were a lot lighter once it kicked in. I’m just so exhausted now though and we have been in the house so much as my 8 year old does not have the energy. We have tried a few times to head out but he’s too weak and also the weather is insane where we live at the moment.
We are usually very active so it’s very frustrating.
I just feel very emotional and alone. My dh is really good but he works a lot (I work part-time and luckily they are very understanding). , when he is home he totally takes over. I just feel very low and panicking about my other kids getting ill. It also means frequent nightwakes so them getting ill is a nightmare really. I’m sorry to go on just wanted to vent really or a virtual handhold....

Ahhhh. That’s a lot going on! How are you now? Do you have time to yourself ever? (Hobbies etc?). It’s very important to remember yourself. Even if it’s just having a bath without anyone shouting “mum” for ten minutes!

That sounds really hard OP; I hope you all feel better soon💐

Thanks! I’m actually really into running and was regularly going before this hit. It just feels really relentless. It’s going on three weeks and I feel I’m hyper anxious now as my kids get so ill with to tonsillitis and it’s always so sudden. The smell coming from my dc mouth is giving me the fear here. Obviously I just have to deal with it and if he has a bad case will go straight to dr etc, I’m just so tired. I feel pathetic as I know people deal with much worse.
Feel like I’m obviously weak or something as I find these illnesses hard to deal with.

A fellow runner! Go - run! It’ll make you feel better and more able to cope. Children being poorly can be stressful and exhausting.

I just can’t seem to pick up , I just feel really exhausted. I’m still on antibiotics which are harsh on the system and I feel like I’m getting depressed. I’m usually pretty upbeat. I’m always on my own with the kids really outside of work, I do have good friends locally but the last few months it’s been busy and the weather is appalling. Also I wouldn’t want anyone else to catch anything so not inviting people over at the moment.
Me and my dh are good at giving each other time to do stuff but we are in the middle of planning a build and dh is very preoccupied with that as he’s doing some of the work himself. I need this build to happen as we have no space where we are so reality is I have to let him get on with the planning etc, it’s all totally necessary. I’m just lacking motivation and just want to have a proper rest but it’s something every night. Although my 5 year old isn’t complaining of a sore throat, I’ve looked down it with a torch and o can see some areas with white patches so I’m now expecting him to get ill with tonsillitis this weekend. It just feels like the illnesses will never end, they are usually very healthy so don’t know why I’m so affected by it this time.