I had a awful dream and I feel physically sick.. *abuse*

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Last night I had an awful dream regarding sexual abuse and my youngest daughter who is 3.

I feel physically sick and not sure how I will ever wipe the memory. I can’t even cuddle her because I’m so disgusted in myself. How do I even carry on?!

Remember dreams are not real - they are not a memory, not an expression of your hopes or desires.

If it means anything, it’s a manifestation of something every parent worries might happen, with a horrible nightmarish twist thrown in, coming out in a dream. Anxiety and stress, perhaps.

It is NOT you who made this dream happen.

It will fade.

I had a dream that I murdered a family member. It was very graphic and awful. I still remember it clearly but the visceral reaction to it has faded to nothing - I can see it for what is is, which is a very weird and horrible nightmare.

It’s just a dream.
You can’t control dreams. This isn’t a dream
that represents your wishes, memories, or desires- the fact that it repulses you, is a sign that it isn’t the “true you”.
I’ve had dreams in which I’ve abused my child, in which I’ve had sexual relations with friends and family members, in which I’ve killed and been killed... I’ve also had dreams in which I’m married to Johnny depp, living in a war zone, and have the ability to fly.

None are real. None are “me”.
They might offer an insight into what’s worrying me, or that I’m processing thoughts or memories- but I only take as much notice of them as I do any other uncontrollable element of my being- like the need to breathe or eat.

Breathe. Relax. Hold your daughter. None of it’s anything to worry about.

Also seconding a PP who said you didn't make this happen, and it means NOTHING except a manifestation of your worries.

I've had some awful dreams where 'I've' done some awful things.No desire to do them.

Put it down to the fact that brains are weird,forget it and go about the rest od your day, and give your DD a big hug.