Im having a rough time (MH)

[Doodlekitty]

Hi all

I just need a space to express some things. I'm in a bad place. I've been to the doc and they have upped my meds (2 weeks ago) but I'm not sure it's working. I'm signed off work until Monday.

I'm spending a lot of time trying to work out how to kill myself without it effecting my children. I know I can't. Realistically I won't. But I hate feeling like this.

There is nothing wrong. No trigger. I have a great life. Good job. Good husband. Lovely kids. Comfortable financially (not loaded, but not stressed). Supportive family. I just don't understand why I feel like this. I want to get better but don't know how to do it.

I have a number to refer myself for counselling. What's the point though? There's nothing wrong, so nothing to talk about.

And yet I feel like this. I'm lost

I have a number to refer myself for counselling. What's the point though? There's nothing wrong, so nothing to talk about

There is something wrong. You’re ill. You’re contemplating suicide. Somehow you think you haven’t earnt the right to, as there’s not enough wrong with your life, but there it is. You can’t go on like this, and deserve better.

Please arrange that counselling 💐