Breaking down. No idea what to do.

[DreamALittleDreamofMe]

I am sat here feeling completely numb. The last 3 months have been awful.

In November my 2 year old daughter fell ill with vomiting, lethargy (sleeping up to 16 hours a day) and vacant episodes. I was signed off for 2 weeks with stress whilst she underwent lots of bloods, MRI, ultrasounds and x-rays, thankfully - they determined that it was nothing 'scary' however she is still not any better and is now under paediatric neurology for further tests.

My 4 year old finally got pulled up on his 'autistic traits' at school. We have known for a long time deep down but we love him just the way he is and I'm trying to juggle all of the appointments for him.

Due to the fact my 2 year old has been so unwell, she hasn't attended her usual childcare for 16 weeks. Luckily my amazing Nan has had her for 2 hours a day whilst I'm at work.

Devastatingly, my Nan was diagnosed with lymphoma today and is now awaiting chemotherapy.

It sounds silly but I feel traumatised and overwhelmed, so much is going on right now and I can't seem to comprehend anything.

I called in sick to work today, I'll make up my time over the weekend. Anyway, my rant really is for advice, I don't know how to work my notice with a poorly daughter, I don't want to give up my job but my priority needs to be getting my Nan well and also there is nobody else to help with the little one so it renders it impossible.

To be honest in your situation I would either get signed off sick for your notice period if you have definitely decided that you need to resign or I would take some unpaid carers leave and see how things go once your nan is on the mend. and things are clearer with your daughter. I'm not sure how much carers leave you can take but may be worth looking into. Sorry to read what a bad time you are having. Lymphoma is very curable usually but the treatment can be gruelling. do you have any support yourself?

Didn't want to read and run. I can only echo what pp has said. Put in your notice and get signed off for the notice period, get sorted on universal credit so you have some income coming in. And treat yourself kindly, it's a big load for anyone to carry.
Hoping you get some positive news soon

Thank you both for your replies - I do love my job and I will be so very sad to leave. I just feel with all the time off I've had to take lately for hospital appointments and tests, that I am being a terrible employee. I thought it would be kinder on the company if I offered them the chance to find someone who could offer them the reliability they deserve. X

Have you spoken to your manager and explained everything that's going on?
My company offer up to a year on "gardening leave" where you can come back to the same position, but it's unpaid. Not sure if other companies offer this or if it's suitable for you, but best to talk to them and find out your options first