I really don't know how much more I can take before I breakdown

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I have bad health anxiety around my DS who is 3.5. He has numerous health issues. Allergies and reflux. Finally been referred to respiratory and gastro peads for him. All the a and e visits and ambulances and doctors appointments have taken its toll on me these 3. 5 years. Ifs only got worse and I'm just at the verge of breakdown. I'm a single parent but his dad is very involved. However most gp appointments fall on me to deal with. I'm having to remember all appointments and arrange things and pick up medicines. I'm becoming very forgetful bqvecause I'm just so stressed. I also feel selfish because my DS is the one who's ill poor guy and I'm the one whos complaining of falling apart.
He's ill atm and my anxiety is through the roof. Went to get blood test yesterday for him and that was awful they couldn't get much out of him and said how unwell he looked. I said that's his normal colour and ever since I've now been worrying about that too.
I don't know what to do. I just want this worry to stop. I want him to be better. I don't think I can hold it together much longer

Are you treated for the anxiety?.

I've just started new anti depressants because my other ones gave me awful headaches. But I don't feel these ones are doing much. I must admit on my old AD I was able to cope with my anxiety alot better

I also have counselling

It is very hard dealing with a child with extra needs. I take sertaline it took over a month to work. I'm sorry your DS is so poorly, I think the thing that helps me is excepting this is my life now, yes it is harder than average with my DC.
It gets easier. I cried over something last week big sobs, then it hit me it has been at least 2 years since I had a good sob.You get stronger, your DS depends on you.
Take the relaxing times, read with him, cuddle him.

Can his Dad take him for 2 days give you a break.

It might take a few weeks until the new antidepressants work. He's 3.5, does that mean he'll start school in September?

@emeraldshamrock he's with his dad this weekend. And as awful as it sounds as I love being with him I really wanted him to go as I desperately needed a break. I cried in the street yesterday which was a first. I am stronger than I was when he was a baby but it still feels like so much on top of me.

@amyfi I've been on them a few weeks now on a low dose to keep I don't have any reactions. Yes school in September. He does go to nursery already 3 days a week though but I work those 3 days so not really a break

Give the pills a few weeks.
Maybe worth setting reminders on your phone? That works for me when I’m in a fog.

Ds2 was a very poorly baby/toddler so I really sympathise. It’s incredibly stressful. For us it all worked out, he got better as he got older and he’s now a strong 14 year old.