What the fuck is wrong with me?

[ibuiltahomeforyou]

I think I'm heading for my second bout of informal performance management in a year and I don't know what to do.

I'm naturally very clever but struggling in my job.

I have depression and anxiety and am on medication. I have an underactive thyroid too.

Basically I feel totally overwhelmed in my job. I work full time but never seem to get on top of things. There is always SO much to do.

I have a two year old DD as well. I'm being made to feel as though there is something really lacking because I am dropping the ball so much.

It's making me worry that I have ADHD or something.

How can I get some watertight processes in place for checking things get done? I work in marketing but there is always so much to do.

I'm assuming your depression and anxiety has been diagnosed by a GP and you are having treatment prescribed by them.

Have you informed your employer? If they know about it, hopefully they would be far more understanding about your work performance and give you some leeway.

That sounds tough.

Have you tried giving yourself time at the beginning if the week to prioritise what needs to be done when.
When we do things rushed I think it can be hard to value taking time out to organise and plan things, but I feel setting time aside to do this really does pay off and then everything seems more manageable. Just a few mins at beginning and end of the day.

What about writing lists at the beginning of the day. Or a list at the end of the day for the following day so you dont forget anything. What about setting reminders for stuff that needs to be done at certain times of the day or week.

Is the performance review likely to involve anything constructive? Are they supportive? Can you be honest with them?

How are you feeling emotionally? If you can't afford counselling or waiting for something through your GP then using samaritans is an option either email or phone calls. Sometimes feeling down can effect our productivity.

Have you always felt like this?

How do you feel about your job? Is it satisfying you? Sometimes our motivation is effected by how interested we are in it.