I have applied for so many jobs over the past 5 or 6 years (following 12 years of being a sahm). I have had two 6 month contracts (different companies, different roles, both covering long term sick leave) in that time. Neither were relating to my qualifications but I really enjoyed both and got positive feedback while in the positions.
However I have just had two rejections from places where I feel I was capable of doing the role well. They were both application forms rather than cv's so detailed. And I didn't even get to interview. In one of the cases I heard they interviewed existing staff so may have recruited internally but no matter, i am crushed.
I feel That I am humiliating myself over and over. My two closest friends are in the fortunate position of never having had to, or wanted to, work so they keep saying just put yourself out there but i dont feel they really grasp what its like to have rejection after rejection. Its bloody hard to keep lifting your spirits!
I do some work from home (self employed) and have done for years so do have an income but just not enough and I have time on my hands but mostly, I want to work. Ideally in something I enjoy. I live in a fairly depressed area so jobs are thin on the ground. Anyway, it's the humiliation and the feeling that I am stupid and have nothing of value to offer that I am struggling with at the moment.
What do you do to stay resilient? I cant even bring myself to tell my husband about these latest rejections.