Any GPS about please? Weight

[RaccoonEyes]

Am at the end of my tether.

I'm mid 30s. Always been over weight. 12 to 13st stoneish at 5ft5.

Ive got really bad anxiety and depression.

I've been on meds for maybe 15 years.

I've become majorly depressed and my anxiety means I don't leave the house much. I don't do anything much.

But Iver the last 2 years I've done one thing.... EAT.

I'm now over 17st stone.

My whole adult life has been me feeling fat and shit and a cycle of me losing a stone, gaining a stone. Losing 20lbs. Gaining 20lbs.

Since September last year I've lost and gaid the same 20lbs three times.

Ive lost 10 lbs and just can't stop binging and now I've started throwing up.

About 3 times a day for the last week.

Will a GP be able to help me?

I'm just so sick of being fat :(

Please don't tell me to just lose weight. Its not that simple. It's tied to psychological issues and I don't have self control.

I'm thinking of making an appointment tomorrow but am so scared they'll just tell me to joing weight watchers

As long as you're completely honest they'll be able to help you, good luck!! It's so hard

I think the GP is a very good call.

Sounds like bulimia, and they will definitely be able to advise you.

They should refer you to a form of therapy to address your eating and control issues, and will likely (if your area provides it) give you a 'prescription' for 12 weeks at the gym.

The throwing up is something I've always done intermittently but I just cnat stop myself eating bad food then the guilt just makes me want it out of my stomach

I cnat go to the gym

Yes, the GP should help. I was in your position. My weight ballooned. I put on 8 3/4 stone. I was desperate to diet but seemed to have lost the ability. I just could not stop eating. It was crazy. I'd tell myself that I absolutely wouldn't go into that shop and buy sweet stuff - then moments later would be staggering away with a couple of carrier bags full. I was addicted. The only thing that helped me was going to Overeaters Anonymous with a friend. It's run on the same model as AA. I don't know why it works but I'm so amazed it does. I've completely put down the sugar - which is a bit of a miracle in itself. I'm eating three moderate meals a day. I still have crazy thoughts sometimes but I try not to act on them. I really don't think I could do this alone and having OA really helps me. Good luck OP 💐💐

I looked at OA but because of my anxiety I just couldn't go.
I don't even know what I'm expecting but I just need help somehow

I think it's a really good idea to go to the GP, they may be able to refer you to a dietician or offer other help.

I wouldn't totally rule out a gym prescription. Our local leisure centre gym has 3 sessions a week which are exclusively for GP-referrals, so it's quite different from just going to a regular gym full of intimidatingly fit people. Would guess its not the only area to do that

Is OA all jesus based?

No, not Jesus based. Like AA it focuses on a Higher Power but that Higher Power can be what you want it to be. My local group includes Christians, atheists, a rabbi and Muslims. One atheist friend says she sees the group itself as her higher power. If you're anxious about going out there's online meetings, WhatsApp meetings or just listening to podcasts. I do them - not as good as face to face but for me definitely better than being alone.

OK. Thanks. That sounds tolerable