I’m going through a bit of a stressful time at the moment. I’m in my final year of a challenging degree which requires a lot of emotional empathy and support in placement, raising three children, have a relative who’s had a heath crisis that I’ve done a lot of hospital visiting for and doesn’t appear to be getting better and then to top it off my relationship with my dad is breaking down because he’s a bit of an arsehole.
I mentioned to my husband last week that I was starting to feel a bit worn out and he sympathised/made all the right noises. Happened to have an awful shift yesterday with a tragic outcome so by the time I got home, I just wanted to switch off. All fine until bedtime, husband takes offence at something innocuous I’ve said and storms off. He has a habit of this occasionally so I just ignored him and went to bed.
He left for work before me this morning and text me explaining how he felt last night - an explanation not an apology. I’ve told him I don’t want to talk about it and I can tell he’s a bit shocked. I am emotionally empty - I have no capacity at the moment to deal with this petty shit and I feel like if the roles were reversed I’d be providing loads of physical and emotional back up whilst he dealt with what was going on in his life.
Urgh don’t know why I’m positing, I just sometimes wish someone would treat me the way I treat him.