Have NC'd for this, things under my other UN could be linked. And this isn't something I'm wanting people to know.
I've developed a 'crush' (nearly bloody 40 so crush doesn't seem the right word but it's the most appropriate for how I feel) on someone I work loosely with. Different departments, and hours but sometimes a cross over between our roles where we do work together.
Been like that for about 3 months and suddenly, out of nowhere, talking one day - I don't even remember what about - and wham, I was knocked sideways by this sudden crush. I've never really believed in the 'our eyes met and I was smitten' but, well that's what happened! He's a lovely, lovely guy, he'd been kind to me a couple of times before that, but I had to him too and it was more colleague support than anything. He's single and I'm single.
And I'm tying myself in fucking knots and driving myself mad with it. After a couple of shitty relationships and an even worse foray into FWB territory, I was just happily single for the last couple of years. Didn't even find anyone attractive really. I have form for unrequited love, and I absolutely do not want to go down that route again, but I also don't want to say/do anything that'll cause either of us to be uncomfortable at work. In short, I don't want to feel like this, but the more I ignore it, the worse it's getting! We chat quite easily, and about some deep stuff at times, but I don't really think he's interested in that way anyway. But then I talk myself into he is, then out of he is.
Help! I don't want this, I just want to be happily single again!