last few weeks iv been feeling so down and like iv no one to turn to i feel like im being silly or selfish but everything in my life is rubbish and good things never last! apart from my my kids they are the only people im holding it all together for! my youngest is 19 weeks old her dad left us when she was 3 weeks old just out the blue stopped talking to me and seeing our baby! the whole pregnancy he was brilliant we were so looking foward to haveing the baby he would be at all the scans etc! i was so in love with him my other kids got on so well with him and he became a big part of there life and i did with his other kids! i was really sick through my pregnacy and due to being so unwell i had to go for an emergency c section 5 weeks before i was due thank god my baby was born so perfect she never needed any help at all so i was only in hospital a few days! i felt like everything was falling into place and life was brilliant untill he just decided to leave and stop talking to me he would ignore my calls my messages etc his mum never gave me any answers apart from she didnt no what was going on in his head! so without any answers i was left and feeling so hurt! when my older kids were at school or with there dad i would just hold my baby and cry becouse i felt like a failure and wonderd how i would manage through another day but i did i always picked my self up becouse i have my kids and to me thats all i need nothing else matters but the last few weeks iv felt so down again iv found out my babys dad has a new girlfriend and was seeing her all along and his mum new about it! i went through the same thing with my older kids dad i was with him 9 years and he walked out on us for someone else and i swore id never let another man make me feel that hurt again then i meet the babys dad and it took at lot to let him in and i did and this is the out come! im honestly lost and feel like im there for everyone else but no ones there for me i seem fine through the week but at weekend thats when i feel alone and have no one! has any one been through the same thing? xx