I don't need advice but just feel free to join me.
My youngest turned 2 recently. My eldest started school in September. This last few days I've been thinking. Thinking how are we already here. When we planned to try for a baby and I had no children I felt all this was such a long way off. But now I've done it twice and those days are long gone. I swear nothing makes time go quicker than having babies.
I have one of each. We are busy enough. We don't particularly have the space for anymore. But the nostalgia makes me want to do it all over again. Even when I walk past the hospital sometimes I think that's where it all began. The scans were there. My midwife appointments were sometimes there. I just feel abit sad those days are over for us. I'll never sit in a waiting room again pregnant, waiting to see if I'm having a boy or girl. I'll never get too announce the pregnancy and plan for the new arrival. Even though at the time being overdue is horrible. I just miss those cosy days at home in leggings knowing my baby is due next week.
I miss the birth and finally getting too meet them and see how they look. Those first precious hours. Announcing the name and weight. I miss having a little baby in the house.
I know these feelings are not a reason to have any more and i won't. I must admit I sometimes think when my youngest is 10 and I'm 37 maybe I'll have one more. But I think deep down I don't want to do that. We will see though!
I sometimes think I would have another if I didn't feel so sick and exhausted until 16 weeks. Meh. I hope these feelings pass.