I'm so fucking fat.

[BlackOfHeart]

Heads been in the sand. DS took a video of me on my phone.

Fuck. I'm huge.

17 stone.

I don't recognise myself.

DH doenst wnat to have sex anymore with me. I'm depressed. I have no clothes. I can't stand mirrors.

I feel fucking awful :(

Do you want to do anything about it? Because wanting to change is the first step.

Please don't be so harsh on yourself, beating yourself up is likely to make you feel even worse than you do already. Work out what you could do to lose wait that will be easy to maintain and then make a plan of how you'll achieve it. You don't have to feel this way xx

Agree with @pinkyboots1
The last thing you need right now is a critical inner voice, you need a big hug. Do you feel that you want to change? You can.

Of course I haven't just noticed!

But I told myself it wasn't so bad an avoided the scales. I've been fat my whole adult life. It's just got worse and worse.

I'll lose a stone here and there but it always goes back on plus more.

I'm a comfort eater and a binger, simply.

Don't change your diet change your habits.

Ones I do. 30min walk everyday.

Meals only no snacks.

No food after tea at 7-8.

If I have a pud it must be fruit based. Often is a piece of fruit and yogurt.

Meals should be normal food normal portions.

That should get rid of a couple of stone if you stick to it.

If it makes you feel better, I'm bigger.

I have had some success with Slimming World in the past so I am throwing myself at that again.

Also going to try and up my daily steps each day.

It is what it.is OP. All we can do now is drag our heads out of the sand and try to improve!

Comfort or binge eating is often a coping mechanism to mask underlying distress so you feel better. Understanding that and working through it will stop the need for the over eating. Get some counselling or hypnotherapy but pick your therapist carefully as there's a lot of cowboys out there. Good luck

If you want to lose weight you need to change your lifestyle. You need to do some exercise, if your to self conscious to go to the gym then you can start at home there are loads of exercise vids on YouTube for free. I'm a binge eater as well but I buy healthier snacks such as fruit to snack on instead of junk food. Start to make your breakfast, dinner and tea portions smaller. Also if you have tea and coffee don't have sugar, you would be surprised how many calories are in those. And just doing a tiny bit of exercise will start to make you feel better about yourself.

On 1 January this year I was 17 stone 7 pounds. Today I’m 16 stone 8 pounds.

I’m a comfort eater and emotional eater too.

Come over to the Blood Sugar Diet/ Fast 800 thread. It works, it’s quick and it’s easy to follow once you get your head round it.

The first stone has dropped off me in just over a fortnight. Everyone on the thread is very supportive.

But make it come from a place of valuing yourself for your health and well-being. You can’t lose weight if you hate yourself. You have to see that you are worth looking after.

I am in a similar position @BlackOfHeart. A photo taken at work and a film taken by dd made me realise how others see me. It has urged me on to do something about it. Have you tried and succeeded with weight loss in the past OP?

I'm heavier and I've joined team RH. Its very sensible calorie based. Look it up. Cheaper than ww and sw too. Brilliant

You have my sympathy, I feel the same. I have an interview next week and have nothing to wear, I can't concentrate on preparing for the interview because I can only think how fat I am.
I am determined to do something about it from now onwards.
Don't beat yourself up as you'll only binge eat more. Take heart from the fact you aren't the only one who feels like this, and that this year you will make changes.
Good luck to you....

Firstly, buy a small selection of clothes that fit so at least you've got outfits to wear. Just cheap basics to see you through. This will help your esteem a little. I got too fat for my clothes before xmas so bought a couple of bits to see me though. Thst alone helped me disliking myself so much.
Secondly, I'd recommend the low carb high fat bootcamp thread that started on Monday. It's not to late to start, newbies have been joining all week. It's an incredibly simple plan. No weighing or calorie counting. I've lost 6lb since Monday. I've dieted all my life. It's a revelation.

How tall are you OP?

Don't wear leggings, they're too accommodating. Hard as it is if you wear fitted clothes you'll realise more quickly if you're getting bigger (or smaller.)

Have you thought about bariatric surgery OP, you can get it on the national health.
I had a gastric band and lost 7 stone. It's not an easy fix but I find it very hard to put weight on with it because it's very tight. I'm an emotional eater too and was eating myself to death.

If you decide you want to lose weight and have podcasts on your phone download secret life of slimming clubs.

They are three women who attend slimming world, very bad at diets but they are really funny. It will keep your spirits up on tougher days.

You are not alone. It is an awful merry go round to be on. Too big, abused in public, which causes comfort eating, makes you feel like shit inside. And for anyone shouting out eat less, move more, it’s not that simple. Any more than saying to an anorexic, oh just eat a doughnut and you’ll be alright.