Regretting planned pregnancy - please don’t judge me

[Connie222]

I’m 9 weeks pregnant with a planned 3rd pregnancy.

And I don’t know why I wanted another child now that I am pregnant. I have two - one is 18 and one is 7. I’m 40.

I’ve just moved across the country and I hate it. I can’t bear the thought of being pregnant here. We’ve moved to be closer to Dh family - I have no family and didn’t really have any friends where we were before so it’s not like I’m missing any support.

My eldest knows (as I get quite ill when pg and I’ll need his help form time to time with his sibling). He’s thrilled. Dh is so happy. I can’t tell him how I feel.

I cry all the time and I feel so guilty. I’ve had miscarriages in the past so I should be happy and I’ll admit that it’s crossed my mind that I hope I miscarry this time.

I feel so evil.

I never feel felt like this in any other pregnancy.

Bless you that must be so hard. You're still early on thought and are probably still adjusting to the idea. The reality of being pregnant is so different to what we had dreamed if when imagining the resulting child sometimes. I wouldn't make any rash decisions. But could you talk to your GP? Perhaps this is anxiety.

It's probably hormones, u will settle in.

What is it you hate about where you live? This may well be a catalyst. Please seek counselling.

That must be incredibly hard. Sorry you are feeling this way. Would talking to someone help? Can you voice this to your partner to chat through things? If you absolutely don't want to have a baby you don't have to

Sorry I missed the part about not being able to tell DH how you feel. How about starting by telling him that you are worried/anxious/upset etc and go from there?

I really think hormones are playing a huge part- please seek support. Everyone will be very understanding

@Cocobean30 it’s not somewhere I’d chose to live if we had a choice. We couldn’t afford to live where we were anymore and had to move here out of convenience. It’s a shithole.

@Connie222 aw I see what you mean. Please don’t feel bad about how you are feeling right now, you can’t help it. I think other posters are right about your hormones, combined with your recent move. You need someone to confide in face to face, I’m sure keeping this inside is making you feel worse