I know it sounds crazy and silly as before I had Olivia I always knew that she would grow up but I didn't expect it to be so upsetting to watch as well as wonderful. Probably didn't help you she is an IVF baby! But time seems to be literally flashing by so fast I try really hard to do a lot with her and make the most of our time together but whatever I do I always feel a heavy heart and sad is I know this time he's going to Flash past me and I'm so scared of her starting school even though she goes to nursery and I work part-time I'm school seems like such a big change and people say it goes even faster when they start school which scares me. Of course I wanted to be happy and do well go forward in life but but maybe I'm trying to appreciate a too much maybe?? What I always feel guilty about everything be there for some reason I never think anything I Do Is Right and I always feel like I'm not good enough and time is literally flying by. ⁹