Don'the know how this works but I need some advice I've recently just lost my mam to suicide 2 weeks ago to new exact I really am going through a hard time I feel so alone I've getting back with my ex we'd been seeing each other before now but he relationship had been troubled but we seemed to sort it out and have for a while anyways I'd had a drink the weekend and turned up at his house I'd had a drink and he wouldn't let me in I was fine but he told me to walk round my house in my pyjamas and shut the door there wasn't much of an arguement at that point but he wouldn't even let me in to ring a taxi I got so upset at the fact he just closed the door on me and left me in my pyjamas (been to a pj party) I kicked off and booted his door and woke up his neighbours I know I've done wrong I really really do we have kids and I'm so embarrassed he keeps blowing everything up though I know my behaviour has been bang out of order but he just doesn't understand he's ignored me for days won't tell me where I stand I just don't know what to do