Saturday morning and I’m having a cry in the bath

[MotherFaffer]

Having a bit of a pity party....

It’s my dads birthday today, he died a few years ago... I feel all griefy again. So wish he hadn’t gone.

I work ft, DH is a sahd. I’m totally out of sync with him and the kids. I’m exhausted from a tough week back at work. The three of them were ready to go out before I’d even opened my eyes this morning, so I’m pissed off with DH for not waiting til I was awake to discuss it and feel like I miss out on yet another simple day to day thing. I’m pissed off with myself for not having the energy to leap out of bed early. I’m frustrated because I wanted to do some exercise as I’m fatter than I’ve ever been and need to get a grip. Yet the only time to do that really is when the DCs are asleep. Otherwise I miss out on stuff they do or feel selfish for making them wait.

So I’m wallowing and crying in the bath. Might just have to write it off as a bad day as I think I’ll have puffy red eyes and be teary all day anyway. Which makes me feel even worse as it’s lovely and sunny and I should be happy to be with my DH and kids and I feel a bit lost in my own head.

Really wanted to feel good for 2020

Anyway, if anyone else needs to have a pity party this morning, feel free to join me.

I’m going to go to the doctors to get my vitamin d and b12 levels checked I think.

Sounds like a good plan, not sure why a PP was surprised you can do this as I’m in the UK and I my GP did this for me last year. My surgery are excellent though - both my Vit D and B12 were low and I took vitamin tablets and they did help lift my mood and general energy levels.

Sorry you were feeling so low yesterday.Hoping you are feeling better today.Looking forwards ,can you and DH maybe have a rethink about your roles? Could he do P/T work now the kids are in School ,or evenings /nights somewhere.We have friends who do this and it works well for them .Will take the pressure off of you as well.Sorry to hear about your Dad .Mum died 10 years ago a week before Christmas and it does get better with time, but its still very hard .Cruse offer free Grief Counselling at any point where you may need it .Take Care .love and hugs coming your way xx

No shame in having a cry when things get too much. Is work usually this draining or was it just a bad week?

You're in the land of lots of dads now, feeling like your missing out on family life. Lots of dads have the same experience.

Good chat with him about taking time to include you at the weekend.

Motherfaffer
Also you need to look to your adrenals.
Stress and exhaustion really pull it out of those tiny but so important little glands on the top of our kidneys.
I’d get some good electrolytes into your diet.
Plenty of magnesium and calcium rich foods.
I swear by concentrace.
I also take nascent iodine and ionic selenium
We have three winter sunshine breaks for our Vit d other times I supplement..take with k2

It’s so important in these very stressful times to get in good nutrition.