I know I'm being a ditherer but help me make a decision, please.

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Hi, NC for this.
I don't know why I'm finding this so difficult but I am.
I volunteer for an org. in a fairly senior role but have spent the last 12 months dithering re leaving it. I work directly with the head of the org who is paranoid and obsessed with their public image. They hide information so no-one else can 'release' it first (never happened, no-one ever has) which makes it very hard to work with them when you're always playing catch up. Everyone in the org is a volunteer. I do get some satisfaction from the role but not anywhere near as much as I used to.
I just don't know why I'm having such a hard time with this decision, I really don't. I don't even really know what I posted this!
I should leave shouldn't I?!

Yes you should leave.

Most volunteers go through ups and downs with engagement / satisfaction etc and if the place they work for doesn’t work hard to keep them engaged and happy, they move on. Head of your org sounds awful, why would you stay? Move on and offer someone else your talents and experience.

New Year, new decision = new organisation!

Thanks all.

Just start looking around for new challenge.