Hi everyone please bear with me I really wanna talk.
I have never posted here but just need someone to talk to as I feel at a complete loss and just need to see what people think.
I have been married for 5 years and have 2 children, 3 and 1. I feel like I only married my husband because he really liked me and I’d never had that before, we were more like great friends and he adored me which made me feel great.
Since being married things have gone down hill, I feel like he is just content with things, he only says things cause he thinks they are what people wanna hear. I tell him I’m not happy anymore and don’t think our relationship is working but he just denies it all and the next day it’s like nothing was ever said.
Our love/ intimate life is none existent, but he hints all the time. I just don’t like him as a person enough to want to do anything with him.
He is lazy, sleeps in the afternoons when I’m busy doing jobs, doesn’t listen, embarrasses me when we are out( says weird things, or talks rubbish) he puts me down as a mum, although when I pull him up on this he denies he said it and calls me a brill mum.
He loves his kids but doesn’t always parent in the way I think is best, but if I try and talk to him he just denies and lies and gets defensive.
I’m not happy but I don’t o ow if I will be happier without him.
I am a stay at home mum so havnt got any of my own money. Feel like leaving won’t be best for kids. I feel like is it better to have him around as an extra pair of hands for when I’ve had a bad day with the kids? Will life be harder on my own?
Sorry for the long post and thank you so much if you read this, just wanna see if anyone else felt stuck like this and what did u do