Help needed with dd12

[Foxton20]

Uhh help.

Iv been in a foul mood all day. My anxiety is really high so no reason and Iv snapped at everyone. Iv said a big sorry after taking a diazapram.

I asked dd12 to get her sister(3) some pjs and she threw them at her face and made dd3 cry.

I’m not proud but I said “you can be a horrible sister sometimes”

She’s stormed off upstairs and texted me saying she knows she’s horrible.
Iv texted back apologising again saying I feel awful and to forgive me.

She said no.

Now what do I do?!

Please don’t judge me. I have BPD and “switch” sometimes which means I just end up in a foul mood and want to be left alone. The kids have argued loads today and the noise drives me insane.

She also wants to be left alone!

Her behavior was horrible, you told her so and she huffed.

Give her some space and let her clam down. You shouldn’t have apologised, you did nothing wrong. Kids need to be told when they’re mean otherwise they just think they can get away with it.