So it's New Year's Eve...
It's also my last day in my 20s! I wasn't phased about turning 30 whatsoever until yesterday when work colleagues told me they found it difficult and I was 'handling it well'! Well now, not so much!! I'm having a mini panic about what I haven't yet achieved in life (marriage, my own children) instead of appreciating and being grateful for what I do have (a wonderful DP and two absolutely fantastic step children whom I adore).
To make it worse we planned to go to an event to mark my 30th tonight. A nasty bug has stuck other family and so we have cancelled with a view to reorganising. We are instead going to DP family (who I love) but DP at the moment does not seem keen to go and I feel would be happy enough at home just us. We are child free tonight so I was looking forward to letting my hair down but it's all been a bit anti climactic. I also know I have no present from DP (already discussed and for legitimate reasons but even so feeling a bit blue about it).
Top it off DSS shares my birthday so tomorrow I'll be having a joint minecraft party with a five year old! 
Totally aware this is a first world problem. Please tell me to cheer the eff up and motivate me to get ready!