Feeling wobbly and sorry for myself

[kemosabeimalone]

I’m 13 weeks pregnant with my third and although I’m very grateful to be expecting I’m finding things really hard at the moment. I’m constantly knackered, have loads of headaches and the sickness is still pretty bad and getting me down. I already feel huge (not in a beautiful way) and in a fit of panic yesterday I over pushed myself when exercising and now I can’t move without feeling like I’m in agony. Everything is piling up- the house is a tip and I’m not giving enough time to my elderly mum. I can’t help thinking I’m a fool for having a third - if I’m struggling now how will I cope with a newborn on top of my 8 and 11 year old. I’m 47 by the way so I knew a pregnancy at this age was going to be tougher but I naively thought I’d be able to cope better than this.

Just to add DH is being amazing and doing loads to help when he can but works really full on hours so I can’t always rely on him for help.

I think that stage of pregnancy is always hard- and I felt similarly with my first age 18 and my fourth age 35... it’s exhausting and worrying and yet not quite “real” as you can’t feel the baby moving about etc. And you forget just how tired and emotional you can get.
So try not to be too hard on yourself- you’re growing a whole human and managing two others and a lot of other responsibilities I think by the sounds of it. Be kind to yourself.

Bless you Isadora - you are very kind. Feeling a bit brighter today!