Is anyone else really really sad?

[Namestranger]

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First Xmas away from DF after DM died three years ago. I feel so so so guilty. Anyone missing loved ones with any memories they'd like to share?

I'll always remember the way DM put on her nice shoes even though we were indoors and would offer everyone M&S nibbles every 30 ok minutes

I miss her a lot this time of year. Handhold to anyone missing someone. Xxx

It's tough isn't it
Missing my mum this Xmas more than the last two

Yup, first Christmas with no parents - it’s a bit shit really.

My first Christmas as a widow.

Also my first Christmas with no parents - lost father 18 months ago and mother 3 months ago.

I keep wanting to email them pics of the kids in their nativity etc.

Trying so hard to be 'up' for the children - and hosting 15 people tomorrow - but just want to cry.

Feel horribly ill, not sure if I actually have a lurgy or just weighed down with grief.

Hugs hugs (germ free!) to you all x

I clicked on this because my mum got a cancer diagnosis 2 weeks ago and I'm feeling dreadfully sad and lost. It's in her oesophagus and has spread to her bones including spine and they aren't very optimistic at all so I'm feeling terribly sad that this will probably be our last Christmas together.

Everything feels very weighted and I feel exhausted by trying to feel happy for my children and am so desperately sad for my mum and in honesty for myself. She's in so much pain and on so many drugs already. She's deteriorated in the space of a few weeks and it's so horrid to watch her in pain knowing I'm helpless. Two days ago she stopped being able to stand as her hip is hurting now so she thinks it's spread there too now or nerve damage or something.

I lost my baby son nearly 4 years ago and I finally felt like I was looking forward to Christmas this year with my other children and now I feel like the rug has been pulled again. I feel like I'm grieving already if that makes sense.

DM doesn't know any of that though, we've put our smiles firmly on for her and done lots of making memories type stuff with the kids and talked about plans for next year etc. I'm making the most of having her here and we've laughed about lots of things in the last couple of weeks despite our heavy hearts.

I'm so sorry for everyone missing someone this Christmas. I hope you all have something to smile about no matter how small

My best friend passed away the weekend. . I have dc so going through the motions . Would take the Christmas decs down today if I thought I could.

My friend loved life though so makes me feel guilty for feeling so shit

I was pregnant but miscarried in the summer. Baby would have been due yesterday and I was all excited about Christmas with a newborn. Really CBA with it all now . We've put a tree up but can't even muster the energy to decorate it.

I'm sorry about your mum's diagnosis @Impatientwino , and your baby son.

Yes. I feel sad. My parents are dead and I am recently divorced. I have 2 children- the older one has got the hump with me over the divorce. The small boy, a teenager is coming to me on 27th.

I feel really sad

Impatientwino my dad had the same diagnosis this spring so you have my sympathies.

I am struggling a lot with no dad (lost my sibling a few years ago). My DM is being very up for the kids but I'm sad and tired. DH doesn't appear to get it and keeps asking what the matter is or getting snappy because he is a twat.

Oh for everyone. This is my 5th Christmas without my dad and my second without my beloved grandmother. They both loved Christmas and family so much that it's bittersweet without them. I'm a dyed in the wool atheist but I found myself wandering round Westminster Cathedral on Sunday lighting candles for them and having a good cry.
Sending everyone peace and loving thoughts to get through the season. I hope you all have people who love you to lean on. X

I understand OP

My Dad died in May so our first Christmas without him
I am ok and then I am in tears , usually over something small but remembered with love .

Hugs to all of you at this hard hard time.

A close young relative has terminal cancer and may be the last Christmas with them, feeling very sad about tomorrow and having to try and put on a brave face with tears beneath.

Sending everyone who is missing someone peace and love for Xmas and the New Year

I miss my dad. He was elderly and I was in my 40s when he died and I feel lucky to have had him for so long, and many are never that lucky. But it still hurts.

My Dh passed away 6 weeks ago I'm living abroad I have no family here. I've never felt so alone.

Some very sad situations here. I feel for you all. I am always sad at Christmas now since I lost my dad 10 years ago and my mum 4 years ago. They loved Christmas and family so much and I find it so difficult without them at this time of year. Even though I have a dd and a ds. They are now teens and Christmas is different. I can’t help but think about how different it would be if they were still here.

This is my second Christmas without my dad. I thought it would get easier but it’s much harder this year. I’m on my own and my teenage DD doesn’t like Christmas so no one to celebrate with 😞.

@scrambledeggsandbeans that sounds really tough. Hoping you feel less alone once ‘the day’ is gone and that you get through it x

I'm missing my beautiful DD. Also my Mum and Dad.

Before I lost my dd, I could never have imagined just now sad life can actually be.

4yrs, it feels like yesterday.

I'm pretty sad -
Dad died last year, step dad died 5 days ago, husband walked out 6 months ago, my 16 year old son (whose friend was killed a year ago) can't verbalise how sad he is so he is full of anger, but my daughter has just made a lovely little tea with Xmas music on and she's found out today she got the job she desperately wanted. So some good.

I visit my grandad's resting place at the crematorium every year on Christmas Eve and I've just returned. This is my 17th year going and I still miss him. I made a silent wish for him to look after my baby I miscarried earlier this year and asked him to help me have a baby by this time next year after an 18 month journey so far ttc.

It’s my mum’s birthday today. She died in 2012. It’s a bastard.

I'm reading these posts with tears in my eyes. My heart goes out to you all.
I lost my DGD 5 years ago this month and Christmas has never been the same since.
I hope you find some peace of mind in the days to come

I'm a single parent with no friends, most of my family have died or are too ill or elderly to do much. Ex raped me twice, left me in a load of debt, then left for a new life. My eldest can't cope with it. I have to do it all and I'm at breaking point constantly. It's so so horrible. I enjoy evenings when the kids are in bed and I can open some wine and forget. That's it. Kids see me cry all the time. I shout and scream all the time. I used to be so patient, polite, kind loving and gentle I was known for it. I'm the opposite now, I'm angry and bitter and full of hatred for the world.

I keep remembering the Christmases I had as a kid - families round the table full of food, constant parties, constant Christmas outings, games and music and laughing and smiles etc. My kids won't get any of that. I haven't got the strength or motivation anymore.