Please help me claw back my sobriety

[justanothergirllooking]

I desperately need to hear from people who have managed to stay sober. I've been sober for three years now, and I need kind words to keep me on the straight and narrow this evening.
Sorry if this offends anyone or annoys anyone.

The thing is, I was always a quiet drunk, at least I tell myself that. I never fell about flashing my knickers, but I was always ticking along somewhere between tipsy and pissed. I was constantly planning my drinking, and where my next drink was coming from. It's no way to live.

Ugh, I hate myself for even having thought about it this evening!!

Don’t beat yourself up OP, I have had struggles with alcohol and now thanking don’t although have a deathly sugar addiction and am massively overweight and hate myself, but that’s another story! Try to look at it as now you are free and to drink again would imprison you, put you back in shackles and you’d be a slave to alcohol once more, that’s definitely how it was for me several years ago. You’re already winning and beating this thing and are much stronger than you give yourself credit for

OP 3 years is AWESOME.

Have you got a sponsor? Reach out to that sober champion

We are all here for you. Booze makes EVERYTHING worse.

You are an AMAZING mum to have come this far!

OP - you are AMAZING.

Look what you have achieved.

I don't know much about your situation but it sounds fucking hard and seems like you've done a bloody good job so far.

You are awesome OP you deserve better than living as a slave to booze.

If I knew you I’d happily come round and wrap my pile of presents with you. Christmas can be such an emotionally draining pain in the arse. Make a start on the wrapping when DD’s in bed tomorrow night, find something really juicy and/or daft to watch while you do it.

You’ve done so well to get this far. Go to bed, and don’t be so down on yourself.

Thanks guys, I survived another day! It's ridiculous, normally it never even really crossed my mind, but last night I wobbled.
Up and about to go out to the post office with my gorgeous dd and be bloody thankful for what I have.

Thank you for your wise and kind words!

Well done OP!

What a fabulous update this morning

Enjoy everyone minute of your day and be proud

Well done OP!

P.S. I have a twatbadger of a father (have been NC for years) I don't blame my mum at all and we have a great relationship, she's my best friend.

God it’s evil how it creeps up like that! Honestly, just write a list, all the reasons it’s a good idea, and all the reasons it’s a bad idea!

I’m coming up 8 years sober, and MAN I am grateful. I’m teaching my teenagers now about healthy habits and have told them I have struggled with it, hence being completely teetotal,

Read the books, get into brighteyes online counselling site, talk to a counselling, set yourself a health challenge, do whatever it takes. It’s not worth going back

Keep posting xxxx

Well done! So proud of you. I am not an alcohol survivor myself but lost my husband and my mum to it. People like you make me feel hopeful again.

And lots of people don't drink at Christmas- neither of my DDs touch it and I drink very little.

Hi OP, just read your posts. Wanted to say well done. Have a fab day. Look at how great you feel this morning. Keep posting for support and advice if you need it.

Recommendations for cheap/free Christmas outings/activities with toddlers:
Go to a shopping mall or street and look at the window displays and lights
Listen to a brass band or choir sing carols
Go to a crib service or Christingle
Buy some paper chains from Wilkos or Poundland and make them together. Or make your own with crepe paper.
Walk through the streets and count how many wreaths or trees or santas or reindeer you see.
Visit Father Christmas.
Buy some decorations from Poundland and hang them up in your house
Read her some Christmas stories
Watch a classic film together, snuggled under a duvet - Paddington or Mary Poppins
Go to a city farm or garden centre to pet reindeer
Sing some Christmas songs together
'Write' a letter to Santa with her.
Make snowmen out of playdough or royal icing

Well down!!!

You were in a really shit place last night and you dug deep and stayed sober.

Great stuff! Well done! Have a lovely day.

Thank you all again. Been out, done various chores, rain has stopped so think we will go to the park and splash in some puddles. If I had had a drink last night I wouldn't have done any of the stuff I did this morning and would be absolutely hating myself for being so weak. I cannot get into that horrible cycle again, I'm just one of those people who cannot stop once I've started...

It's weird as I stopped drinking completely as soon as I found out I was pregnant and didn't give it a second thought. And I've had literally the most traumatic few years, and I haven't caved, so I am not going to cave now. Splashed out on some posh sparking raspberry lemonade to cheer me up.

Thanks for the lovely Christmassy suggestions for dd, we have a few things planned with friends as well, so hopefully it won't be as bleak as I imagined it would be last night. All the other crap can be put on hold til January, I am just going to enjoy the time I have with my dd.

for all of you for helping me stay strong.