Will name change after this thread! I feel terrible - mentally and physically - and just don’t know how much longer I can carry on. I have tried to access counselling through my employer this evening - it’s supposed to be 24/7 but it said that they were on another call and then just cut off. I just don’t know how I will get through another day - troubling thoughts and very tearful. I feel that I need some time to look after my mental health but when I think of calling in sick I feel so guilty. It also sets off a complete panic about losing my job and what on earth I will do then. All the worry is exhausting - don’t know what to do.