Found out earlier today that the doc wants to induce me next week at 39 weeks. I wasn't expecting this (does anyone!?) but I am getting my head around it and happy to follow the docs advice.
Anyway, I came out of the appointment and called DH to let him know and then called DM. As soon as I told she started saying 'no no no no no no no' over me while I was trying to explain. I told her to stop as she was panicking me and I know that whether I'm induced or not, I want to try and keep a positive outlook and not be scared or anxious about it. She said she understood and chilled out a bit while I explained the reasoning for the recommendation but then asked if I knew what they'd do (I don't) and proceeded to tell me about when she was induced over 30 years ago and very quickly started telling me how awful it was ('they gave me a drip and boy was that a game changer!' etc). I could feel the panic in me rising and said to her I needed her to stop as it was already filling me with dread at the idea and I need to be able to stay calm next week, or it will be a lot worse. She kept ignoring me and saying 'ok sorry I'll stop but....' and then carrying on. I'm just pissed off with the whole conversation and generally that I don't have the kind of mother who can be a bit more supportive. She can be so selfish and this was just another chance for her to make something about her. She was annoyed with me when I didn't want to go nursing bra shopping with her (does any 30 year old WANT to go bra shopping with their mothers?) When I was in MAU, because I had been bleeding, I messaged her to let her know while I was on the ward and called as soon as I was discharged. Her immediate reaction was to tell me off for texting and not calling. Need to learn not to expect a supportive reaction and therefore not call her in these moments of need.
Just needed somewhere to vent!