Feel like an idiot cried at work 🙄

[poloarpanda123]

OK so I started working with an agency about 4 months ago after moving with my children to a new area. I was told this position was long term until September next year. Today I got a call from the agency telling me that they didn't need me after Christmas. The first I heard.
I'm on my own with 3 children and with Christmas coming, Feeling tired and all the rest, I just felt overwhelmed. Not being paid for holidays is bad enough but now I have to go through the whole process again and it's daunting. I struggled when I came here because I couldn't find childcare so my hours are restricted.
I've worked in schools for several years but this was my first agency post. I knew it could happen but was devastated.

Head took me aside to explain about all their fundng issues and was very sorry to have to do this etc etc....

Anyway, I was mortified I just had tears most of the pm and couldn't face the children.
Definate over reaction on my part. I guess I am just feeling really crap, but I'm going to have to apologise now tomorrow.
Am I an idiot?

You're not an idiot. Stop being so hard on yourself.

I’d have cried too. You’re only human. Right before Christmas too. Brutal.

thanks lovely netters. My safety net.

I’d have cried too. You poor thing.

Why apologise for reacting like the majority of other people would have reacted? The head knows it's shitty, that's why they apologised to you, even if it wasn't directly their fault. Don't apologise. You did nothing wrong. Chin up, head up and a new year is coming in less than 30 days and can be a new start for you

Not an over-reaction at all. Do not be ashamed of the tears - entirely appropriate in this situation. Bugger the stiff upper lip lark!

Enjoy, I hate crying in public. I very rarely do. I just felt despair! My children are all I have here and my job. I had a permanent job before moving with fab colleagues I called my friends. I'm starting to regret moving as I literally have no support system around atm.

I’ve cried at work a few times, and haven’t always been able to hide it - as far as I know no-one has judged me for it. You’re only human

Thank God though for you fab people on here. You never let me down.

You come across so lovely, I bet you are a lovely colleague. Wishing you all the best, you deserve it

Polo fellow single mum and teacher here. I feel your pain - have been in a similar situation. It just feels so hopeless. All the hard work. Have some and speak to the agency. Something will come along

I cried at work last week, not like me at all, but sometimes it's necessary.
Don't beat yourself up, good luck with it all.

Are you sure you won't get o PPI did holiday? Most agencies do now

Remember you aren't the first and won't be the last person to cry at work

You are a human being, crying is a very very natural reaction to such horrible news.

Good luck with your future journey, I hope it will turn out positive for you.