I am finally ready to open up and talk about what’s happening to me but I don’t want to do this to people I know.
I have been in my relationship for 9 years and have 2 children, my partner is emotionally and mentally abusive, which he openly admits. He has a personality disorder and every time I try and leave he threatens to kill himself.
I have absolutely no idea of who I am anymore, the things I used to love I no longer do, I no longer see anyone, I give my partner more attention than my oldest child.
He says he hates how he treats me and beats himself up daily but nothing changes.
I have no life and I know all this is going to damage my children and I don’t want them growing up thinking this is a normal and healthy relationship!!
I’m scared to leave as I rely on him financially because I’m on maternity leave.
Just talking to someone may help