Dealing with loss

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My beautiful nan has passed away, I have never lost someone this close before and am really struggling! I keep thinking about every little detail... how she lived a long happy life, how she didn't want to live for much longer.

I have a 6 week old and I am just so thankful she got to meet him but I can't stop seeing her rocking him in his carseat to keep him asleep whilst I cleaned for her every week!

I had to ring my family as she lived in sheltered accommodation and I am her emergency contact when the lady couldnt get through she went to check on her and found her on the floor 😢

I should be getting up today and going round to clean! She should be answering me when I ask "are you ok nan" with "well I'm still here" my heart is so broken but I have to be strong for my mum!

Oh bless you. I'm so sorry for your loss- sounds like you've had a shock too. You don't need to be strong for your mum- you need to grieve too. Your Nan sounds like she was lovely. May she rest in peace. Sending

@SageYourResoluteOracle thank you 💖 It looks as though she passed on Friday, which is even harder because the thought of her laying there alone all weekend breaks my heart I feel like I should of checked on her more but she seemed fine I thought she would have lived at least a couple more years!

She was my mums rock and I don't want to make it any harder than what it must be! If I am hurting this much it must be unbearable for my poor mum 😢

Very thankful I can offload on here...

how she lived a long happy life, how she didn't want to live for much longer.

I think that’s a good thing to remember. Many people don’t get to live till old age. I recently lost my cousin very unexpectedly. They were 33, married but not yet had children. Although it’s sad when grandparents die, when someone young dies it hits you different. They don’t get to grow old, have or see their children grow up etc. You should take great comfort that your grandmother lived for so long, got to see you grow up and even meet your baby.

@Butterflycookie I do take great comfort in that, I am very thankful she lived a long happy life, she had many grandchildren and we even got to celebrate one last birthday with her! But it still doesn't make it any easier for the people left behind!

Sorry for your loss ❤️