Feeling very sorry for myself.
My sons father and I have been separated since I went I to a womens refuge when my son was 3 months old. hes now 2.5 years.
we co parent with him having my son 1 night a week.
Today we were meant to take his grandmother out for a meal for a belated birthday treat. He was in a foul mood from the moment we got there and was swearing at me calling me a fucking bitch, shut the fuck up and to fuck off all infront of my son. He was hungover from the night before and still in bed when we arrived at the pre arranged time ... albeit 10 mins early.
I told him 3 times to stop. He didn't and then he told me to go. So I took my son and went to the car. He then came out to say BBC to our son and told him it wasnt my sons fault he hated me. I said it is not ok to speak like that infront of my son and it will mess him up emotionally.
I then had to tell his grandmother that we were not going out as i had been told to leave. I told her he was saying horrible things and that said he hated me.
He then came storming out and said I was a liar .
A that point I told him everything I said to her was true and then drove off.
I'm exhausted and upset and drained.
life feels too hard right now.