Hi everyone.
I am young mum to a 4 year old LB and 2 year old twin LGs and finding things really difficult.
I’m trying to fight depression and social anxiety and parenting full time.
I’m really struggling to have patience with my LB who is very clever and full of curiosity to the point where he asks questions every minute of the day.
He cant sit still EVER. Even when he is eating he jutters around and twitches and makes sudden out bursts of noise.
I know he just has so much energy but i cant manage to get him out to run it off every single day
I feel i can’t meet his needs for constant attention and stimulation as well as provide the constant care the girls need too.
Sometimes i have better days other times i have a difficult time trying to understand what part of this is supposed to be enjoyable?
The constant moans and crys make me tense
I feel like im slaving away and have no time for self care
I just feel like I’m letting everyone down and not being the parent i want to be.
My partner works full time and earns more than I do so we can’t really swap roles, having said that his wages aren't good and we barely make ends meet.
I’m just burnt it and drained all the time and have little fuse or patience left.
I just don’t know where else to turn, i take antidepressants, I attend play groups as much as possible, I’ve tried CBT and mental health groups,I’m currently on a waiting list to do therapy again...
I’m trying to remain positive and lower my expectations of how much I can do but I just want to be able to enjoy my life and my kids now.
I feel awful, I have lovely children that I’ve always wanted so why do I struggle so much, I should just be able to enjoy yhe kids
I feel so much guilt even saying this, my children are innocent and precious, its not their fault :(
Thankyou for taking the time for reading my big moan