As above, read Allen Carrs easyway book. I genuinely do get it, it obviously makes so much sense. I don't WANT to smoke. It's disgusting, it stinks, it's expensive and causing untold amount of damage to my body. But I certainly don't have this amazing feeling that is written about in the book, I'm not enjoying it even though I know it's a good thing.
If you are an ex smoker please talk to me about the first few days/weeks and how you made sure not to give in. I REALLY want to be a non smoker for the rest of my life.