As the title says I'm ok until someone better comes along. This seems to have happened my whole life with different people and different groups so I guess it must be me. I would describe myself as being kind and a good listener but there always seems to be someone who trumps me by being more interesting, talkative engaging etc.
Two recent examples. I was at an event were I was talking to a woman I know. Her children are below mine in the same school. I thought we were having a nice conversation. We were talking about the children and school and I know she is doing a part time university course so I was taking an interest in that. Then another woman come in and she just was up and away, give her a hug and started chatting away to her and I was just left.
Second example I take my children to swimming lessons every week. There is another Mum and her child goes to the same School as mine and we always talk. The last few weeks I feel that she has snubbed me and I am hurt by it as I really enjoyed and looked forward to her chats and I am annoyed with myself for feeling like this. There is another group of Mums. One is very obviously Queen Bee of the group and she has two hangers on and occasionally a third one and the Mum I like is trying to engage with them and edge herself into the group. She now makes a point of going over and sitting beside them and I am left on my own. The group completely ignore me even though all our children are in the same swimming class. It deflates me every week.
I just thought things would be different when I became an adult and had children of my own but it hasn't. I just never seem to be enough and feel quite sad about it.